Freddy, good to see you posting again.
I am glad you are back. I would like to share something with you and the forum members, if you will please indulge my post.
I have a heavy heart today because I have to give a euology this afternoon. I woke up at 1:30 a.m., not able to sleep, trying to digest everything that happened.
You see, I was adopted as a baby, right from the hospital. I met my birth mother (Ruby) when I was about 9 or 10 and formed a relationship with her. I have two older brothers and one older sister. Ruby was having trouble financially with the other three children at the time she got pregnant with me, feeding them sugar water instead of milk, so she decided to give me up for adoption.
We have had a rocky relationship over the years. I was close to her as a teenager, but as an adult and in recent years, we had an estrangement. I kept in touch with my biological siblings. In fact, my brother Ray and I are very close. But my stubborn nature would not allow me to go visit with Ruby during the last years of her life, even though she lived 10 minutes from my home.
Well, she passed away this past Tuesday, March 8th, and I am overcome with guilt. I should not have harbored negative feelings that only hurt myself in the end. Ruby was quite the opposite. She could get mad as a hornet at you and five minutes later would be making your laugh. She had a loving heart and did not have one stubborn bone in her body.
I guess what I'm trying to say, Freddy, is I have learned a hard lesson in life by Ruby's passing, and that is that life is just too short to allow myself to remain upset at others. It won't ever happen to me again. If there were more Rubys in this world, it would be a happier place for sure.
Again, welcome back, Freddy.